Anyway, I've finally realised that I'm ok. Honestly.
I actually feel like I'm moving into a new phase.
I'm not stressing about losing more weight, I'm not worrying about putting it back on. Over the past six months, my weight has hovered around the same mark. I may put a little on if I eat more carbs than are good for me and neglect my protein, but it comes straight back off when I work the programme.
Sometimes my 'fat head' rears up, but most of the time, I'm ok.
It's time to move on.
I'm leaving my surgery support groups, except the one on Ravelry, which has people at the same stage as me and seems healthy. While we have knitting, we're not all obsessing about the surgery and targets and outcomes. I need to be away from that.
I've stopped weighing myself so often. It's how I feel and how my clothes fit that guides me at the moment.
I'm also discontinuing my ticker/tracker. This is it. It marked my progress for a long time. ITo be honest, I stopped filling it in ages ago and I'm not even stressed that it doesn't show the last 3lbs I lost! For a mad moment I debated adding (subtracting?) the final amount before I deleted it, but sanity won out.
I don't think I need it any more, but I'm posting it, and the stats that sit behind it, here for posterity ;) It's not that I need to hang on to them, but just that they were important to me and it's ok to acknowledge that. It's like putting them in a memory box or time capsule, which I guess is what this blog is.
1
|
05/26/2011
|
143.0
|
2
|
05/18/2011
|
145.0
|
3
|
05/13/2011
|
146.0
|
4
|
05/06/2011
|
150.0
|
5
|
04/08/2011
|
152.0
|
6
|
03/25/2011
|
153.0
|
7
|
03/12/2011
|
154.0
|
8
|
03/03/2011
|
156.0
|
9
|
02/10/2011
|
157.0
|
10
|
02/03/2011
|
160.0
|
11
|
01/27/2011
|
162.0
|
12
|
01/20/2011
|
165.0
|
13
|
12/23/2010
|
172.0
|
14
|
12/17/2010
|
174.0
|
15
|
12/09/2010
|
175.0
|
16
|
12/02/2010
|
177.0
|
17
|
11/25/2010
|
178.0
|
18
|
11/17/2010
|
180.0
|
19
|
11/12/2010
|
182.0
|
20
|
11/05/2010
|
183.0
|
21
|
10/29/2010
|
184.0
|
22
|
10/14/2010
|
186.0
|
23
|
10/08/2010
|
189.0
|
24
|
10/01/2010
|
190.0
|
25
|
09/24/2010
|
191.0
|
26
|
09/17/2010
|
193.0
|
27
|
09/09/2010
|
195.0
|
28
|
09/03/2010
|
199.0
|
29
|
08/31/2010
|
200.0
|
30
|
08/27/2010
|
202.0
|
31
|
08/20/2010
|
205.0
|
32
|
08/13/2010
|
206.0
|
33
|
08/08/2010
|
208.0
|
34
|
07/22/2010
|
213.0
|
35
|
07/16/2010
|
216.0
|
36
|
07/09/2010
|
219.0
|
37
|
07/02/2010
|
221.0
|
38
|
06/25/2010
|
222.0
|
39
|
06/20/2010
|
224.0
|
40
|
06/18/2010
|
226.0
|
41
|
06/17/2010
|
227.0
|
42
|
06/11/2010
|
230.0
|
43
|
06/10/2010
|
231.0
|
44
|
06/04/2010
|
235.0
|
45
|
05/28/2010
|
236.0
|
46
|
05/14/2010
|
240.0
|
47
|
05/07/2010
|
243.0
|
48
|
05/05/2010
|
244.0
|
49
|
04/30/2010
|
246.0
|
50
|
04/23/2010
|
250.0
|
51
|
04/16/2010
|
253.0
|
52
|
04/09/2010
|
255.0
|
53
|
04/07/2010
|
256.0
|
54
|
03/28/2010
|
264.0
|
55
|
03/25/2010
|
265.0
|
56
|
03/23/2010
|
266.8
|
57
|
03/22/2010
|
269.8
|
58
|
02/18/2010
|
271.4
|
59
|
02/11/2010
|
273.4
|
60
|
02/06/2010
|
274.8
|
61
|
02/04/2010
|
275.8
|
62
|
01/27/2010
|
277.4
|
63
|
01/21/2010
|
280.0
|
64
|
01/16/2010
|
283.0
|
65
|
11/05/2009
|
279.0
|
66
|
10/17/2009
|
283.6
|
67
|
10/08/2009
|
284.2
|
68
|
09/26/2009
|
285.8
|
69
|
09/15/2009
|
286.4
|
70
|
09/11/2009
|
287.4
|
71
|
09/04/2009
|
290.2
|
72
|
08/30/2009
|
290.2
|
73
|
08/22/2009
|
292.4
|
74
|
08/15/2009
|
291.8
|
75
|
08/12/2009
|
294.0
|
76
|
08/03/2009
|
294.6
|
77
|
07/31/2009
|
295.6
|
78
|
07/25/2009
|
296.4
|
79
|
07/20/2009
|
297.2
|
80
|
07/11/2009
|
297.4
|
81
|
07/05/2009
|
299.0
|
82
|
07/04/2009
|
300.0
|
83
|
06/27/2009
|
300.8
|
84
|
06/26/2009
|
301.2
|
85
|
06/24/2009
|
303.0
|
86
|
06/20/2009
|
305.0
|
87
|
01/01/2009
|
325.0
|
1 comment:
you are phenomenally inspiring Gill, congratulations to you for reaching your current head space phase, you look fantastic by the way too :)
((( hugs )))
Helen xx
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